Looking Back
My life was a big mess during my younger days. There are things that I have done which I’m even ashamed to mention. And sometimes, I still can’t even believe that I’ve done those horrible things. Anyway, I have left those things behind knowing that I’ve been forgiven when I gave my life to our Lord Jesus Christ. God has washed away my sins and guilt and has given me a brand new life to look forward to.
During my school days, I was very much influenced by rock music scene. I started to join rock and roll bands and sing in the weekends for parties and concerts. Yes, this is when I try experimenting with cigarettes and drugs. Started with Marijuana, and then got hooked on heroin. After I left school, I joined a group called The Mustangs. Our first gig was a year contract at a hotel disco in Bangkok, Thailand. During this time, I was on all kinds of drugs, from Marijuana to Heroin to LSD, etc… When I returned to Penang after one and half years in Bangkok, I was badly addicted to Heroin and was still involved with music. In 1971, I packed my backpack, and traveled with a friend overland from India to Germany, Europe. (Refer to Travelling) During the 8 months trip, I was so messed up with drugs that I sometimes could hardly remembered when I have been and the places I have visited. While in Germany, I was working in a restaurant, doing dish washing, then later promoted to a cook. I was working there illegally without a work permit. After two years, the law caught up to me. And for the first time in my life I was put in prison for 3 months in Munich, Germany before they deport out of the country. I traveled once again overland back to India, then by ship to Penang, Malaysia.
For the next three years while in Penang, I got deeper and deeper into Heroin. In 1976, I once again packed my backpack and made another overland trip to Europe. This time my younger brother, David went with me. While in Paris, France, my Heroin addiction was so bad that I have to start dealing drugs to sustain my habits. I was a drug pusher in Paris. After spending about three years in Paris I flew back home to Penang. The reason? Heroin was then so cheap in Malaysia compared with Paris. From this time onwards my life went downhill. I was involved with criminal activities and dealing with drugs. I have lived in the streets for three years. I have been arrested for criminal offences and procession of drugs and was sentenced to prison for a total of four and a half years.
In 1984, I finally decided to quit my drugs habit. I got myself admitted to a Christian Drug Rehabilitation Centre called The Hiding Place. I gave my life to God and commit myself to start all over again. Since then, I have never looked back to my drugs and dark days. I have served in Christian Drugs Rehabilitation Centre and even pioneered one in Petaling Jaya called Lifezone, together with Glad Tidings AOG Church. I have also served in Eden Handicap Centre for a good two years. I have also served as a fulltime worker with Fettes Park Baptist Church for one and half years and Excel Point Community Church for five and half years. I got married to my wife Eileen in 1991. We migrated to Australia and lived there for six years before returning to Malaysia in 1998. Well, that’s as brief as I can get about my life. All glory to our Lord Jesus Christ.











Wow, what a colorful life. I must admit that while I did some really wild and crazy stuff during my younger days (not THAT long ago) I don’t even come close to that!
But your experience is more testament for the pathetically poor education young Malaysians receive on serious social issues like responsible drug use and sex ed, and also a terrible education system which has failed to instill a sense of maturity into teens who think they can deal with the “hard stuff”. Rather than any real or imagined “changing power of Jesus Christ”. After all, there are thousands of people who kick drugs without the help of religion, and for every “changed” ex-addict there are many who re-lapse, even in Christian rehab centres.
Who knows, if you’d had the foresight to stop at Marijuana and not progress to heroin, your band might’ve made it big and theres no telling if your life would be any better or worse off than it is now.
I’m really glad to meet/read a post from fellow recovery.
One day at a time.